Anyway, as I always mentioned time flies and our little boy is turning 3 soon. Well, he is now transformed into an active and rather expressive little person. He has his own thoughts, habits and own way of doing things. I am now on 1 year No-Pay leave and I guessed it will stay that way for quite some time.
The reasons of us considering whether I should quit my jobs are :
1) Declan fall sick too often while in childcare
2) We think that childcare really focus on "Child - Care" and not academically. We would like him to be more academically inclined.
3) I am tired of facing my mum's "unexpected outburst" every few months. So we think its better not to rely on my parents anymore.
4) We do not wish to hire a maid at this moment and of cos we won't feel safe with leaving him alone at home with the maid.
Though I dun really fancy my job much, but I am there for a decade afterall. Has a bunch of wonderful friends and colleagues there. So I am really reluctant to leave. In addition, I just don't feel secure without a job even though I knew my pay doesn't make much contribution to our household expenses.
Daddy Koh has been telling me:" You can't think of yourself everytime cos now our top priority is our son!" So you see I am really lost now...I can't say that I enjoyed taking care of our little terror all the time cos its pretty tiring and he is now getting very stubborn as he has his own thinking now. But that also reminds me that I should keep a close watch on him cos sometimes I really think he is a bit too "street smart" for his age. I knew I would surely regret or rather Daddy Koh will surely blame me if our son turns astray due to my work commitments in the future...
Sigh, at times I am real tired. Seeing grandparents who are more than willing to look after their own grandkids makes me wonder why is it that my parents dun even treasure or willing to look after this only grandson. My mum always said:" Your grandma also never help me in the past!" Yeah, so all the more she should understand how helpless I felt with no one helping me. Sometimes I really wonder whether I really own too many debts in my previous life and here I am repaying every single of them..My Husband, My Son and my parents....Thinking of this always makes me sad...Ok, enough said, here are some pics to lighten up the atmosphere!
